Murder
copyright © 2005 Devon Aster
He reaches into the inner pocket
of his trench coat
and dangles the little bag
before the young boy’s eyes.
It’s full of white lies
and magic snow,
he promises wonders
the child has never seen.
The man hides within
the cracks and shadows,
away from the chirping birds,
the sunny park, and the searching mom.
“Just come with me.”
He holds out his hand,
thin pale fingers
reaching… reaching…
The young boy takes the hand
and the man smiles.
This is his profession,
the murder of innocence.
House of Cards
copyright © 2005 Devon Aster
It’s falling all around
this house of cards
falling down down down
I’m on the top floor
tumbling toward the ground
the cards fluttering
fluttering down down down
I can’t believe this
a house of cards
made of dreams and lies
I can’t catch myself
I’m falling
falling
smashing to the ground
It’s raining all around
cursed house of cards
raining down down down
I’m here on the edge
looking toward the ground
the lies pattering
pattering down down down
I can’t contain this
a house of cards
made of dreams and lies
I can’t save myself
I’m falling
falling
crashing to the ground
It’s fading all around
dead house of cards
slipping down down down
I’m lost in the storm
lying on the ground
the pieces shattering
shattering down down down
I can’t rebuild this
a house of cards
made of dreams and lies
I can’t brace myself
I’m falling
falling
dashing to the ground
I can’t… I can’t…
Oh God, it’s a house of cards
made of dreams and lies
I can’t hold myself
I’m falling
falling
falling to the ground
I can’t… I’m falling
falling
fallen to the ground.
Twisted Roads
copyright © 2005 Devon Aster
It’s all there is
I walk these paths
these twisted twisted roads
black on white, white on black
endless gray
stretching out into nothing
it’s all twisted before me
behind me
I can’t see past the next turn
maybe there’s a drop
a pit
where I’ll fall
onto the broken jagged rocks
want to stumble, stumble so bad
and break
finally break into
the millions of pieces
too many to put back together
I’ll
take one
and
cut it out, cut it all away
make it finally stop
make it finally go away
I’m trying to hold it all together
with string and tape
like a broken rag doll
with all her stuffing coming out
I keep saying…
I’m ok
ok
really ok
.
.
.
but I’m not
Feast of the Dead
copyright © 2005 Devon Aster
Drive me to the grave
to the grave
to the grave
where I’ll have dinner with the dead
We’ll drink hemlock tea
and eat puffer fish
Oh how it is
I wish
I wish
to be their guest for eternity
Drive me to a hell
to a hell
to a hell
where demons eat the souls of the dead
I’ll lay myself down
on the table top
Oh how it is
I wish
I wish
to have my worthless heart served round
Drive me to this void
to this void
to this void
where nothing is ever felt again
It’ll wash me away
to a nowhere place
Oh how it is
I wish
I wish
to escape the dreams of every day
Cleanse Me
copyright © 2004 Devon Aster
Cleanse my soul, O God
Wash this pain away
Let the rain streak down my face
Falling over my features
Stripping away the layers of my mask
Let this hurt fade away
O God, I’m holding out my arms
Open to the racing wind
Take it all away, God, take it all away
I want to feel free again
I want to be free to fly
Angry Woman
copyright © 2004 Devon Aster
Angry Woman
alone in the night
Angry Woman
tired of the fight
Angry Woman
cry so loud
Angry Woman
don the shroud
Angry Woman
your tears are shed
Angry Woman
your soul has fled
Angry Woman
can’t you see
Angry Woman
you are me
Unknown
copyright © 2000 Devon Aster
I shut my mouth
so I do not scream
but the sound echoes in my mind.
I sit there wondering
if I really exist.
Can I exist
if no one knows me?
The emptiness is everywhere
it is where I live.
I try to fill it
with hope and love and dreams.
But my hope never gives fruit
my love seems to fall and disappear
my dreams are mere wisps of nothing
that are broken the moment I realize
I am not there.
I fall into fantasy
I hear someone call my name
I look over my shoulder
I am still alone
Unknown.
Shadow
copyright © 1998 Devon Aster
It lingers there,
a shadow in the door.
I raise my hands to keep it away.
Go away, go away
It puts a hand on the doorjamb
and a coldness fills the room.
But it comes not for me.
For another, another it seeks.
Do not take this away from me,
my nurturer, my strength.
Tears do not sway it.
My voice it does not hear.
I stand in front of it,
but the ghostly hand goes through.
It snatches the light.
Steals it away.
I couldn’t stop it,
my guilt overtakes me.
A voice speaks to me.
Goodbye, goodbye
Rape the Mind
copyright © 2001 Devon Aster
Rape the mind
Shatter the soul
You’re mine to control
I tell you what to think
I tell you what to feel
You belong to me now
You can’t escape
Hiding inside yourself
Your heart turning to stone
A hollow empty shell
dying from within
You’re not alive unless I say you are
Don’t run free
Forget the meadows
The trees and forests are gone
This desert devoid of pain
Pleasure is what I make it
You listen to my words
Drawn in now
Too late to fight
You can’t find peace without me
I own your life
I give it value
I am your master
Rape the mind
I can’t control
Giving hope that’s a poison
Soul shattered
Tears I cry
What it feels like to die
I’m gone away
No one hears me
Shouting I have no voice
I can’t bear this life
It is no life
I’m a prisoner taken home
You took the heart from my hands
Deceiver I let you lie
Am I wholly to blame
I sit at your feet
I’m a good one now
Filled with misery
The words make no sense
The world is gray to me
I believe you when you tell me colors
Illusion is all I have
My faith based on solid sand
I hear only you now
Rape the mind
Rape the mind
The soul is nothing now
Shatter it like glass
The universe is all there is
No one owns despair
Rape the mind
Kill the voice
Take it violence lets you pay
There’s no one and there’s nothing
Stop it when there’s nothing left
This world created at your feet
Rape the mind
Shatter the soul
Power makes you lust
Crave it chase it hunt it down
No one can tell you wrong
Because you don’t let you listen
Rape the mind
(Nothing left)
Rape the mind
(No room for grief)
Rape the mind…..
Paradox
copyright © 2001 Devon Aster
It is what I am
A contradiction in the flesh
So complex yet so simple
A peaceful soul that yearns to fight
A heart that hates and loves
From one extreme to the other
As consistent as the flow of time
I cry from the pain of others
And I shut them out
Selfish and selfless
Innocent and corrupt
Hoping for the world’s salvation
Hoping for the world’s destruction
I seek out solitude
But reach for companionship
I hold my heart tightly
Forcing my hands open
My eyes see evil everywhere
My eyes see good everywhere
The confusion is maddening
And it is my sanity